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  Anniversary of my mums death....the JW robbed me of time with her and I cant forgive them.

  by Pams girl in

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  its been 2 years.

  she was lying in intensive care (i didnt know she only had a few days left)...... building up to the bloody convention in cardiff millenium stadium.

  yap yap yap we can take you yap yap, you need to be there yap yap, oh my head was all over the place.

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  Cantleave.......I know. Thanks mate x Bastards....grrrrrrrrrr.

  Looking forward to seeing you, Nugget, and kiddies on Friday 12th/Sat 13th. Shall we fry some black pudding up?

  Only kidding, you can have a choice of home made Moussaka, Lasagne, Thai, Paella (my fav!) any Indian curry, Chinese, Mexican, Welsh (anything, served with lava bread ) Put it this way. You wont go hungry, and you can have a few Jack Daniels (my fav) or have Stella...or whatever you want. My FIRST MEET WITH AN EX-JW EVER, AND AN ELDER NO LESS, WHOOP WHOOP! x

  Im feeling a bit better x

  THANK YOU ALL X
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  Anniversary of my mums death....the JW robbed me of time with her and I cant forgive them.

  by Pams girl in

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  its been 2 years.

  she was lying in intensive care (i didnt know she only had a few days left)...... building up to the bloody convention in cardiff millenium stadium.

  yap yap yap we can take you yap yap, you need to be there yap yap, oh my head was all over the place.

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  MS...."What your heart feels absolves you..." That is possibly the most beautiful thing Ive ever read. I will think long and hard about that. Thank you x

  Dudu, I dont even know how to do the MSN stuff, but thank you so much for your kind words. x

  I wonder how I can forgive myself. This is the problem underneath it all I guess.

  Hubby just rang, hes coming home. I wont be alone. Thanks for listening.

  I still need you all x

  So glad you are here today x
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  never looked at your names till now

  by Found Sheep in

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  the down side of having a name like raveen is that names don't mean anything to me.

  all people become nothing... any odd name people undesrsand?

  i was called she... you... not my name for most of my life... that made me not care what your name was.... so i don't know people i want to know!!!

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  My first name is Paula, meaning "small" thats a frigging joke for a start.......

  My middle name is Lynne, from the Welsh translation meaning "waterfall or cascade"

  My married surname is a derivative of a German river, although going back 300 hundred years we have no German connections.
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  Anniversary of my mums death....the JW robbed me of time with her and I cant forgive them.

  by Pams girl in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  its been 2 years.

  she was lying in intensive care (i didnt know she only had a few days left)...... building up to the bloody convention in cardiff millenium stadium.

  yap yap yap we can take you yap yap, you need to be there yap yap, oh my head was all over the place.

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  How could I have been so STUPID TotallyAdd to put them before her?????

  BP, as always, youre a true friend, thanks so much for the music x

  I may be blonde but Im not an idiot. HOW did they get into my head with their smiling faces and hugs? Maybe the problem isnt THEM, its over. Maybe its ME, I cant forget how I LET THEM rob me of the last precious moments.

  TotallyAdd I may have to keep venting. Im sorry. I hope those of you whove come to know me over the past monthes will understand. Im a good person. Im an ex-nurse, a mother, and a nana now. I didnt hurt anyone in my entire life. Its not in me. Hard to ask for help. But today is pretty bad.

  I dont feel so good.

  Thanks for being there, even if you are half way across the world. Maybe thats what makes it all the more special to me. Sorry x
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  Anniversary of my mums death....the JW robbed me of time with her and I cant forgive them.

  by Pams girl in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  its been 2 years.

  she was lying in intensive care (i didnt know she only had a few days left)...... building up to the bloody convention in cardiff millenium stadium.

  yap yap yap we can take you yap yap, you need to be there yap yap, oh my head was all over the place.

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  Pams girl

  Oh I just cant stop crying.
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  Anniversary of my mums death....the JW robbed me of time with her and I cant forgive them.

  by Pams girl in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  its been 2 years.

  she was lying in intensive care (i didnt know she only had a few days left)...... building up to the bloody convention in cardiff millenium stadium.

  yap yap yap we can take you yap yap, you need to be there yap yap, oh my head was all over the place.

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  Im so glad to have you guys x
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  Anniversary of my mums death....the JW robbed me of time with her and I cant forgive them.

  by Pams girl in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  its been 2 years.

  she was lying in intensive care (i didnt know she only had a few days left)...... building up to the bloody convention in cardiff millenium stadium.

  yap yap yap we can take you yap yap, you need to be there yap yap, oh my head was all over the place.

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  Its been 2 years. She was lying in intensive care (I didnt know she only had a few days left).....

  Building up to the bloody convention in Cardiff Millenium Stadium. Yap yap yap we can take you yap yap, you NEED to be there yap yap, oh my head was all over the place. I WENT....I LEFT my mother ALONE in a bloody ward attatched to tubes and machines FOR THOSE BASTARDS!

  She died 2 days later. The routine op went wrong and the surgeon nicked her bowel and she died of blood poisoning. I SHOULD have been with HER not them. Im so upset and angry today. I will never get that time back. I will never forgive myself.

  Im so sorry Mam.

  If I could post a link it would be "Somewhere" by El Divo...her fave.

  Im alone today.

  Im upset.

  I hate them.

  Is it normal after 2 years to still hate them?

  Can I move on and forgive?

  I wish I could hug a friend. I wish............I wasnt alone.

  Im sorry. Dont feel too good and my panic and anx is rising.

  Thanks for listening. Just wanted to get it off my chest.

  Love Paula xxxxxx
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  I'm new here..... Studying with the Witnesses

  by PenelopePaige in

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  hi- i just wanted to say that i have been checking the website out for a few weeks and have read some horror stories and some sad ones.

  but i have been studying with witnessess for about six months and can't help but feel that they're completely sincere and maybe even, the true religion.

  i love the watchtower and awake and to me, none of that seems crazy.

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  A belated welcome aboard Penelope, Im glad you found us, and I pray its in time.

  When I found out there was a sex offenders register in Brooklyn of JWs whod committed the most heinous crimes against children and young adults imaginable, I ran screaming away from the JW...and Id been studying for 6 years.CAN ANYONE POST ANY INFO ON THIS OR LINK TO SILENT LAMBS PLEASE??? Thanks

  Also finding out the WTBTS had joined the UN (The harlot, unclean thing...) was a wake up call. This forum saved me.

  You can be spiritual without them I promise. They are a cult.

  Sending you best wishes x Paula x
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  Watchtower on women shopping for shoes

  by Marvin Shilmer in

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  watchtower on women shopping for shoes.

  most folks are unaware watchtower has published an essay on women shopping for shoes.

  today my blog exposes this wretched piece of publishing!

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  Pams girl

  Swopped my comfy old ladies shoes for fab skyscraping 5 inch black stilletos recently...taking some getting used to but damd I feel sexy.

  Another pathetic form of control on their part.

  May even get my nose repierced soon too......
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  My association with this organisation is coming to its end!

  by TimothyT in

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  2. beliefs

  im posting from my boyfriend's house!

  im having a week here with him to get away from things and to enjoy myself.

  recently i came out to my entire family that im gay.

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  I luv ya Tim n Jack x